We celebrated Shivaratri at the Ashram toward the end of February, it was a difficult one for me because I was quite sick with a deep cough, headache, and body aches. It took me extra time to recover from this illness with lots of rest since then. It also gave me quite a bit of introspective time asking myself and others if they are better people because of the all-night chanting and denial of sleep for one night.
My introspection has led me to review in my mind as many Shivaratris as I can remember as I have been observing them quite regularly since 1981 when I met Shri Babaji in India. I cannot say that my career with Shivaratri had a glorious beginning. As I have written about in the past, when I heard Babaji was in physical form and available to be visited in Haidakhan, India, I went as quickly as possible. I did not wait to write the letter that was required asking permission of Babaji to come. I just went with very little preparation, knowledge, or money. Arriving in Delhi and finding out that Babaji had traveled to Wape, Gujarat, I made my way there, which took another 48 hours or so and most of my money. I never thought to question why Babaji had gone to Gujarat and the answer, that He traveled there with devotees each year to celebrate Shivaratri, would have had no relevance, since I did not have a clue what Shivaratri was. As I said, I had no knowledge of Indian tradition I just knew in my heart that Shri Babaji was my Lord.
My arrival in Wape, finally at my Lord’s feet, is another story to be shared some other time, but after some ordeal I was given a place on the living room floor of a small house that the other Western devotees were occupying. After a day or two, I was becoming a little accustomed to the intricacies of Indian bathing in a petticoat from a bucket that you filled up in an outside faucet in the wee hours of the morning so I could arrive to receive chandan from Babaji at 4am in the morning. All of a sudden one morning, something changed dramatically, what was a line at the faucet of 12 people swelled to hundreds and people kept stepping in front of me to fill their buckets. The end result was that I never made it to chandan that morning and when I finally got a bath and went to aarati, there were thousands of people, nowhere to sit, and mass confusion seemed to pervade the atmosphere. After aarati and fire ceremony, and lunch; I went back to my little space on the floor in the living room for an afternoon rest, to my chagrin it was filled with what seemed like hundreds of people all spread out for their naps. This was all too much for me and I decided to go into the town of Wape and get a hotel room for the night so that I could at least get a place to lie down and take a bath. (That is about all that was in a hotel room in this small Indian town in 1981!) I remember as I was walking I saw Radhe Shyam in the distance but I did not feel like he would have time to hear how I was confused, disorientated, or overwhelmed, so I said nothing and went on my way reckoning that no one would even notice that I was not there in such a crowd of thousands.
Little did I know that the reason that thousands of people were converging on this place in Wape was because it was Shivaratri, the night of Lord Shiva and Shri Babaji, Lord Shiva manifested on earth, was there. The next morning, when I arrived back for aarati, I found out that Shri Babaji had asked after me and people were searching for me in the fields nearby fearing some mishap had befallen me. I then was told the significance of the night I had missed and that Shri Babaji had even allowed people to pour milk over Him, like a sacred murti, for this special occasion. I could barely even grasp the magnificence of what that would have been like. After aarati, fire ceremony, and bhandara, the throngs of people began to leave and I cleaned and settled back into my little space on the living room floor.
So in considering this first Shivaratri, I see that I was in a lot of fear around not being good enough to be there. The other westerners had traveled there with Babaji, knew what was going on and how to do things right, while I did not even have a clue and did not even feel worthy enough to ask anyone for help and support. Who knows if I had been there for this holy night, if I would even have had the courage to push my way through the crowds to pour milk over the sacred body of my Lord? I feel my fear would have prevented me from doing this.
This reminds me of my next trip to Babaji with my children in the summer of 1981. Shortly after our arrival, my eldest son, Jacob age 10, began going down to the river with a few yogis to give Babaji His afternoon bath. After wondering about this for some time, I finally asked him who had given him permission to do this very special and honorific duty. He told me no one! He said he had seen a few others doing this and decided that if they could do it, why not him? He seemed to have had very deep experiences during these baths and one time he told me that I could not even imagine what it was like to rub the lotus back of Shri Babaji. One afternoon Babaji gave Jacob His silk lunghi and kurta and even wrapped him in it coming up the stairs with His arm around my little boy whose face was filled with bliss. It appears that the crippling fear that kept me from spending the night honoring and bathing in milk Lord Shiva in His Human Manifestation was not part of his 10-year-old's reality! What a blessing.
So as I unravel the mystery of my yearly participation in Shivaratri for probably 30 years, I do have to ask if my devotion is driven by the fear of not being good enough, not fulfilling my duty, my fear of putting too much burden on other’s shoulders, and needing to pray, fast, and stay up all night to make myself okay in God’s eyes? And the answer to this question has been sadly yes many times, particularly this last one when I should have stayed in bed and taken care of myself. Oh what life would be like to have the fearlessness of my 10-year-old son!
In Truth and Love,
Ceremonies and Schedule
The full-moon fire ceremony this month was today Sunday, March 12 (over 70 people!) and the new-moon fire ceremony will be on Monday, March 27. The following nine days, March 28 - April 5, we will have daily ceremonies celebrating Spring Navratri. The fire ceremonies begin at 10am and are followed by a meal. Please arrive ten minutes early, freshly bathed, in a long skirt or pants with shoulders covered, and having fasted from grains, cereals, meat, eggs, garlic and onions. Fruit, yogurt, unsalted nuts, veggies and tea or coffee are fine to eat before. Also, if you have a dietary need for something more hearty before our meal at 11:30 or so, please partake.
Our evening aarati is at 6pm and morning aarati at 7am and the small fire ceremony is at 8:00am (usually done indoors this time of year). We do not have the small fire ceremony when we have our large fire ceremony on new and full moon. The Maha Lakshmi Shop is open every day from 10am until 5pm. We love to see you.
If you would like to participate by sponsoring a fire ceremony or a bhandara (feast), we would be happy to send you a blessed item from the fire ceremony if you request. They are:
$27 sponsorship - Copper, brass, nickel Om Namah Shivaya bracelet
$54 sponsorship - Rudraksha, Rosewood, or Tulsi Mala
$108 sponsorship - Rose Quartz Mala or a copper, silver, brass Om Haidakhandi bracelet
(Click here to go to our Paypal link to sponsor a fire or bhandara.)
Spring Navratri - Tuesday, March 28 through Wednesday, April 5
Nine days honoring the Divine Mother is just around the corner, what a blessing. Each day there are touching pujas, extra chanting, big fire ceremonies, inspiring discourses about Mother, and lots of sharing and karma yoga. It is a magnificent time. Please join us for any or all of the days. We have folks coming from around the country as usual, even two of Shri Muniraji's granddaughters. It should be a very special time together. The weekend is practically full already so call or email as soon as possible at email@example.com or 719-256-4108. If you are not able to make it in person you can still sponsor a fire ceremony or bhandara by clicking here. Jai Ma!
Paduka Pujas in Denver Area - Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, April 21, 22, and 23
Shri Babaji's padukas will travel to the Denver area with Ramloti the weekend of April 21 - 23. They will visit the homes of four devotees. Here are the times and dates for puduka pujas, aarati, chanting, and Indian feasts. All devotees are invited but please call the host and hostess so they can prepare for your visit. We hope you can make one or several of the events. Bhole Baba Ki Jai!
Friday, April 21 at 7pm - Rahul & Ashwini Nipunge at 11016 Valleybrook Cir, Highlands Ranch, CO 80130. Puja begins at 7pm followed by chanting and dinner. Please call call 720-308-7873 or 720-201-8583.
Saturday, April 22 at 11 am - Sudhir and Alka Deshpande at 15237 Delhi Ave, Parker, CO 80134. Puja begins at 11 followed by bhajans and lunch. Please call Alka at 720-936-7855 to RSVP.
Saturday, April 22 at 6pm - Ajay and Sabina Pradhan at 4834 S. Eagle Circle, Aurora, CO 80015
Puja begins promptly at 6pm followed by chanting and dinner. For more information and to RSVP for dinner call: 720-732-6141.
Sunday, April 23 at 11am - Ami and Chairag Parekh at 15080 Jakarta Circle, Parker, CO 80134. Puja begins at 11am followed by chanting and lunch. Please call 848-565-4470 for more information and to RSVP for lunch.
Ninth Annual On-Line Fundraising Auction - April 28 - May 7
It has been a huge support to the Ashram to have this on-line auction each Spring for the last eight years. The funds raised each year have helped us pay off the loan for the kirtan hall, build Ramloti's hermitage, and make many improvements and repairs on the Ashram. This year we will dedicate the funds to improving our electricity supply at the Ashram so that we are able to change our water purification from chlorine to UV filters, have more dependable refrigeration, and a stove that does not leak propane. We are so grateful to all who participate by sponsoring, donating items, and purchasing items, you make this all happen. If you would like to donate an item or items whether you have donated before or not, call me at 719-256-4108 or you can add it to the auction yourself at this link. Sponsors totally underwrite the auction so consider this option, it is also an excellent way to share your website with others. Once again, you can call me or go to this link to put up your sponsorship. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts.
A few of the over 110 items we already have up is a wrist mala made with a Lotus Seed from Shri Babaji; a Lunghi from Shri Babaji; a matted, mounted, and framed poster of Shri Babaji, and a signed basketball from the Los Angeles Lakers . To view all of the items click here.
Annual Family Week - July 25, 26, 27, 28
We are getting closer to that special time of year many gather at the Ashram for Family Week. The actual program dates are Tuesday, July 25 through Friday, July 28 with arrival date July 24 and departure July 29 morning after a family meeting. Since families sign up a year in advance, we may already be full in the dorm but we still have camping options and yurt space or a room may come available so we can put you on the waiting list. We ask a donation of $135 per adult per week to stay at the Ashram, children stay for free. Call us at 719-256-4108 or email us at firstname.lastname@example.org to reserve space.
Real Love Workshop with Inge Jechart, Susan Dunn, and Tami Strom - July 25, 26, 27, 28
Running concurrently with Family Week is our Real Love Workshop each morning from 10am until 1pm. Last year's program was so valuable for people we are having not one but three Real Love Certified Coaches: Inge Jechart from CA, Jonathan Baer from AZ, and Susan Dunn from CA. as well as Tami Strom from WA, who is a certified "wise person" and facilitates groups and conference calls. This is an amazing opportunity for those that would really like to explore how living without fear feels and can be a reality. This year there will be tons more individual time to receive the love these folks, who spend their lives sharing Real Love, will give as well as helping us see the behaviors we have put in place over a lifetime to protect us but which actually block our ability to live life freely and to receive unconditional love.
The cost of the four day workshop is only $108 if you register in advance and $135 at the door. There are some partial scholarships available but this needs to be negotiated ahead of time. We will ask each participant to at least read the basic information on the website at www.reallove.com, and for the most in depth experience, read the basic book, Real Love by Greg Baer, MD. which you can buy on our website by clicking here. We will be limiting attendance to 45 participants so registering ahead of time will guarantee you space in the workshop. Here is the form. You may send it back with a check to P.O. Box 9, Crestone, CO 81131, or call with a credit card at 719-256-4108. You can also send it back via email at email@example.com and pay on line at donate through PayPal. Please mention the workshop payment and your contact info.
Here is a blurb from one of the coaches:
"I have been practicing Real Love for about 15 years and became certified as a coach in 2011. In addition to coaching, I also enjoy connecting with anyone who want to practice or learn how to love by phone, and sometimes we even visit each other in person.
"Doing this work - learning how to be more loving (which includes learning how to say “no”), and learning how to be myself, has been an incredibly fulfilling journey (and saved my life). My family also benefited from my work. My two sons will tell you that their relationship with me is much different now than it was ten years ago – much kinder, calmer and more fun.
"I enjoy bringing love and the very practically oriented Real Love principles to the community. Having met many of you last summer, I can’t wait to see what you have been up to and continue our Real Love journey together! For more information on Inge go to http://pacificreallove.com/about-us/"
International Haidakhan Journal
The International Haidakhan Journal, lovingly published by Rob and Gaby Hock of England and an editorial staff, is now available for your reading pleasure. This one is dedicated to the next generation of devotees. I really enjoyed it. Click here to read it.
Update on UV Filter and More Electricity
We have received a bid from Solar Gain Services, LLC, a highly recommended local solar company, to replace, upgrade, and ease the amount of maintenance work for the electricity in the earthship and to enable us to utilize a UV filtration system rather than chlorine. We are still in the clarification process with Luke Christy, the principal of the company. The initial bid is $25,800 utilizing 16 new Fullriver DC Sealed 7-year warranty batteries, 12 Canadian Solar modulars on pole mounts, inverters, circuit breakers, control panel, charge controller, and all the other components for a turnkey solar electric system. We also have the option of using flooded lead acid batteries for about $2000 less or Iron Edison brand Lithium Iron Phosphate batteries for an additional $10,200. We met with Luke again last week to discuss location of PV array and clarify out choices more. As soon as he gets back to us with the final numbers with the adjustments we have asked for, we will make a decision so that we can get on his spring schedule. We also are having him give us a quote to utilize some of the components that will be replaced in the earthship to upgrade the dorm PV system which is often over stressed with visitors and to allow for UV filtration there as well.
We ask your support on this project for which we need at least another $13,000. You can make your donation through paypal by clicking here or send a check made to HUA to PO Box 9, Crestone, CO 81131. If you have any feedback for us please get in touch with us. Thank you for taking care of Shri Babaji's and Mother's home.
Don Kehoe Passes Away - A Tribute to a Great Man, Devotee, and Friend
On February 20 Kay, Raina, Tyler, and Zachery bade goodby to their beloved husband, father, and grandfather, Don who had been suffering from dementia since 2002. Don was an amazing man and had been associated with the Ashram since its inception. He met Shri Babaji in December of 1983 and the story of his first encounter is memorialized in the first story of this YouTube video which you can access by clicking here. He and his wife Kay hosted Shri Muniraji and Shri Shastriji at their farm/ashram in 1985 and 1986. For many years after we gathered at their large haven kund and in their lovely temple for fire ceremonies, pujas, and aarati.
He was also a loyal participant of our early Family Weeks with his grandson, Tyler. It was a special treat for everyone when they would arrive. He always had a kind word, big hug, and usually a joke as well when he greeted you. He was an amazing worker and his skill as a landscape architect was a huge boon to the Ashram. Looking around today you can still see some of the rock retaining walls he built over 20 years ago. Premanand and I took him to Haidakhan and to visit Muniraj and Shastriji shortly after it became apparent that he had dementia and despite his disorientation and forgetfulness, it was a wonderful time with him. It was a slow progression and it was heartbreaking to watch. My eyes fill with tears of sadness because I miss his laughter because he was such a character, and gratitude that he is now with His beloved Babaji after so many years of suffering. We love you Don and so look forward to seeing Kay, Tyler, and Zachery again at the Ashram.
Divine Mother Calendar Photos
We received such an amazing gift from JD Marston of these inspirational and awe inspring photos of the Divine Mother which we made into a 2017 calendar. We have sold out of the calendars but many of us have made desktops and screen savers from the images and find them a constant joy to see when we go to our computers. The Board of Directors has voted to make them available to all and through the work of Linda Joseph and Jeewat Vig here are the directions for downloading them for Mac and PC. Just click here. Another Board member, Mark Rosen, has made this lovey video from the images and with the lovey background music of Vamadeva. Click here to view this.
Karma Yoga at the Ashram
We have been busy this month with updating and adding to the Ashram auction site, updating the website, snow removal, wood gathering, cooking, cleaning, and preparing and orchestrating Shivaratri. We are so grateful for all of the love and help that Shri Babaji and the Divine Mother send to us.
We ask each of you to look into your hearts and see what this Ashram means to you and to please donate as you are able. You may go to our website and donate through PayPal (you can even set up a monthly tithe). You can also send a check (made out to HUA) to P.O. Box 9, Crestone CO, 81131 for your support, love, and prayers. Bhole Baba Ki Jai!!
Fire Ceremony in Decatur, GA & Real Love Evening
Once again we had some lovely gatherings in Decatur at our friends Pam and Kelly’s home. It was a rainy morning so we elected to have the fire ceremony indoors. That evening ten of us gathered to learn about Real Love. It was a very sweet and warm time with these friends.
Another Shivaratri with good attendance and much devotion. It is always inspiring to see the young folks who stay up all night and those that sleep through all or part of it. For some it is quite a yearly event. Thank you to VK Sharma who comes from Denver to preside over the ceremonies sharing his Sanskrit verses. Vamadeva was our primary kirtan wale and with Premanand on the dollak, the music was inspiring and enchanting. Vesper and Ramloti were the backups. The fire ceremony the next morning was well attended despite the cold.
Videos of Babaji Devotees Telling Their Stories on You Tube
Many people have shared that when they want some inspiration or a strong experience with Babaji they tune into these stories of devotees sharing their experiences with Shri Babaji. You can tune in as well on YouTube under Ramloti Wood channel at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hb00tphmmco
Lots of Visitors to the Ashram
Spring is here and that means plenty of visitors, todays fire ceremony alone had over seventy. We appreciate all who come and bless the space with your love.
Calendar of Events for 2017
March 28 - April 5, 2017 - Spring Navratri, Divine Mother Festival
April 21 - 23 - Paduka Pujas in Parker and Aurora, CO (see schedule above)
April 28 - May 7 - Tenth Annual On-Line Fundraiser Auction
July 8 - Guru Purnima
July 21 - 23 - Annual American Haidakhan Samaj Gathering and Annual Meeting
July 25 -28 - Annual Family Week with concurrent Workshop on Real Love (arrival on July 24 and departure on July 29)
September 20 - 28 - Fall Navratri, Divine Mother Festival
October 19 - Diwali, Festival of Lights
Maha Lakshmi Shop Report
We are excited to have four new posters on our Shop website. The first is a beautiful image of Shri Babaji and sales for $10.08.
The next three are fine art images by JD Marston and sale for $18. JD is a devotee who won the Ansel Adams Award for Black and White Photography from the Sierra Club. His expertise is witnessed in these signed fine art posters.
You can buy them all by clicking here.
The Maha Lakshmi Shop is open every day from 10am until 5pm. You may call the Ashram at 719-256-4108 and place your orders over the phone and we are happy to answer any questions. It is really nice to connect in this way. We take Visa, MasterCard or Discover. Many but not all of the items in the Shop are on our website at http://mahalakshmishop.wazala.com/ so you can go there as well.
The Shop is a major supporter of the Ashram. We deeply appreciate your patronage.
Maha Lakshmi Mata Ki Jai!